Blood drawn, let's wait some more!

You know it's been a long time between blog posts when you have to go back and read your last posting to see where you left off last. Oops! Sorry about that! Life gets in the way, as you know. The end of summer was a busy time for us, with the kids going to camp and getting ready for school. Ryan started kindergarten this week and Katie started second grade. We are very pleased with their teachers and think it will be a great year for them. I was able to get my blood drawn for all of the labs (20 vials over 2 days), so we are on our way (maybe??) to answers. I did get a few of them back already and found out my lactic acid is low (that's a good thing, might rule out 1-2 of the mito. diseases; only 38 more to go!), my pyruvate level is low (not so good, we think but don't know for sure; think it means the red blood cells in my body are dying faster than they are supposed to) and my carnitine level is high (no clue as to whether that's good or bad). I will "officially" get the results of all of the tests Sept. 23, so we have awhile to wait yet. Yesterday was the 18 month mark of my first hospital stay, the date we use for the start of all of this. I can't believe it has been that long already! When I first go sick, I thought I'd be able to go back to work before the end of that school year. Now here we are with just 6 months to go before my contract will expire and I am just as sick, if not worse, than I was then. I am so blessed that my job is held for so long, and even more so that my student teacher will continue on as my sub, but nevertheless I don't understand why I'm not the one there. Today is a hard day for understanding; I know in my head that I'm not called to understand, but to trust that God has a bigger plan. Right now I don't like His plan very much. So I will throw my little temper tantrum for a few minutes, then give it back to Him. Because He sees the whole picture, and I can only see my little part and I know that He knows what is best for me.