Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Cleveland Rocks!

We are home from our trip to Cleveland, and what a good trip it was! The weather cooperated (most of the time) and we learned so much from Dr. Cohen. He really seems to know what is going on in the world of mito. and, as my mom put it, "He's a straight shooter." He ordered a few labs, a sleep study (he couldn't believe no one had done that yet!) and a swallowing study. He answered all of our questions, and gave us lots of good info. Here are some of the highlights:
  • He doesn't know what type of mito. it is (quote "The pathophysiology of this disorder is not clear, it is something that could have a mitochondrial basis but that is difficult to prove using our current technology."), but says the chance of our kids having it is "nearly none" since he's pretty sure it was triggered by an event (i.e. a virus)
  • He thinks at some point I can probably get back to 95% functioning; not fully where I was before, but that's pretty close! We'll take it!
  • Patients with Ehler-Danlos (like me) will exert a lot more energy for every movement, so even before I was "sick" my body had to work twice as hard as everyone else's
  • Excerise is critical, as "exercise is the most potent stimulant of mitochondrial function"
  • The plan is to try a blue tight therapy, add 3 new supplements, increase fluid to at least 96 oz. day (holy moly!), and wait for the results of the labs and studies.

All in all, we were very pleased with our visit and will see him again in 2-3 months. He will no longer be at the Cleveland Clinic, as he is creating a program from the ground up at a children's hospital (still in OH). He won't be able to see many follow-up patients, or many adult patients, but he is keeping me as he "finds my case very fascinating!" YES! Finally being unusual is to my advantage! Thank you for your continued prayers and support. We are so thankful to be heading in the right direction and to have found Dr. Cohen. He is officially on my "Top 5 Favorite Drs." list (sad that I have one, right?). :-)

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

November

November is just about over, and once again I realize I've neglected the blog. Oops! November was a month full of blessings. Our church and small group has loved on us immensely this month, and we've been able to bless others as a result. I was also healthy enough to go on a 3-day adventure with my grandma, sister-in-law and mom to the Biltmore for my grandma's 80th birthday. We had a blast! My body kept up with me for the most part, and it didn't take as long to recover as I expected (I thought I'd be on the couch for a week; instead only 2 days!). My testimony at church went well, and I hope to attach a video to the blog in the near future. They did a great job editing it, and it turned out very nice. I've had several nice comments about the piece, so hopefully it touched some lives.
The weekend before Thanksgiving, I started having trouble walking due to hip pain, which made for a long week and an uncomfortable holiday. Yesterday, I went in for a cortisone shot...ouch! I spent a long and painful day on percocet, but today the pain is better. It will take a few days for the shot to kick in, and we are praying that it works. I'm not sure what caused the pain, maybe the Ehlers-Danlos syndrome? Who knows. Next week, my mom and I will head to the Cleveland Clinic to meet Dr. Cohen for the first time. I'm excited to hear what he has to say and what the game plan will be! Ryan's birthday is next week as well, then Christmas and Scott's birthday. December is such a busy month here, as I'm sure it is for everyone else. I pray you all had a great Thanksgiving and that you count your blessings this season. I am overwhelmed by the needs of others, at times, and am so thankful that God continues to provide for us!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The Call, finally

Sorry for the long break between blogs, but there hasn't been a whole lot to write about. I've been waiting for just over a month to hear from Cleveland Clinic and finally got the call today. Dr. Cohen is not accepting new adult patients, but the co-director, Dr. Parikh, will see me in mid-January. I am pleased that he will see me and that it is earlier than anticipated (originally told March), and hoping that my body settles down until then. I've been having problems with my heart rate being irregular and dropping down to 46-50 bpm for a few hours at a time. When that happens, I get really dizzy and tired and feel like I'm about to pass out, and sometimes a little sharp-pain-in-the-chest just for good measure. Not fun!

In other news, God's provision seems to abound. A few weeks ago, my dad told me one of his bosses' daughter was a geneticist at Duke and she was willing to chat via email about my situation. Dad and I both emailed her and I included a link to this blog. She put 2 and 2 together and realized that...we went to middle school and high school together! I think we may have cheered together in 8th grade. Small world, eh? Not sure what will come of this connection, but just knowing that there is someone out there who is willing to lend her expertise in this area is such a blessing.

Another blessing comes in the form of a recall (doesn't God have a sense of humor??). Our 11 year old van was recalled last week and it will take at least 90 days to get the new parts in. Because of that, Ford is willing to give us a rental car (we'd pay taxes of around $100/month), OR buy back our van for about 60% of what we paid 7 years ago! Hello! I think we'll take the cash, please! We've been "waiting" on that car to die and anticipating that it would happen before Scott graduated, so the thought of being paid cash to go buy a new car is unbelievable. We will still need to use some of our savings, but not nearly as much as we'd planned. What provision!

We also have been so blessed by several friends from church, who have so graciously made meals for us; one family even gave us part of a cow they had purchased (like, a 1/4-cow or something!). The first roast is in the crock-pot as we speak. It is overwhelming to be loved and taken care of at times, my heart is overflowing. Thank you, friends, your time has been impeccable.

Karin

Thursday, September 23, 2010

The results are in! Sorta, kinda, maybe...

I went back to the geneticist this morning, and all of my testing is back. It appears as though I have a mitochondrial disease, probably. They say "probably" because it seems I have one that is yet to be pinpointed. Yep, I like to make things difficult. :-) The doctor compared it to having a disease that won't be diagnosed until the next generation. It was really strange, she said, looking at my test results, because one amino acid or something would be normal but then another would be almost zero and they shouldn't be or whatever and it was just so fascinating. It amazes me that anyone who knows anything about the human body could ever NOT believe in God. We are just too intricately created! We talked at length and the bottom line is this is way beyond even what they do, so they are emailing one of the top mitochondrial specialists in the world, Dr. Cohen, who is located at...that's right! Cleveland Clinic! He will look over all of my info and hopefully elect to see me. In the mean time, I will continue to take it easy as needed, since over-doing it is bad for mitochondrial disease, and be thankful that we are finally, maybe, getting answers. For those who want for info on mitochondrial disease, here is info from the United Mitochondrial Disease Foundation:


What is Mitochondrial Disease
Mitochondrial diseases result from failures of the mitochondria, specialized compartments present in every cell of the body except red blood cells. Mitochondria are responsible for creating more than 90% of the energy needed by the body to sustain life and support growth. When they fail, less and less energy is generated within the cell. Cell injury and even cell death follow. If this process is repeated throughout the body, whole systems begin to fail, and the life of the person in whom this is happening is severely compromised. The disease primarily affects children, but adult onset is becoming more and more common.

Diseases of the mitochondria appear to cause the most damage to cells of the brain, heart, liver, skeletal muscles, kidney and the endocrine and respiratory systems.

Depending on which cells are affected, symptoms may include loss of motor control, muscle weakness and pain, gastro-intestinal disorders and swallowing difficulties, poor growth, cardiac disease, liver disease, diabetes, respiratory complications, seizures, visual/hearing problems, lactic acidosis, developmental delays and susceptibility to infection

Energy Factories and Much More
The conventional teaching in biology and medicine is that mitochondria function only as "energy factories" for the cell. This over-simplification is a mistake which has slowed our progress toward understanding the biology underlying mitochondrial disease. It takes about 3000 genes to make a mitochondrion. Mitochondrial DNA encodes just 37 of these genes; the remaining genes are encoded in the cell nucleus and the resultant proteins are transported to the mitochondria. Only about 3% of the genes necessary to make a mitochondrion (100 of the 3000) are allocated for making ATP. More than 95% (2900 of 3000) are involved with other functions tied to the specialized duties of the differentiated cell in which it resides. These duties change as we develop from embryo to adult, and our tissues grow, mature, and adapt to the postnatal environment. These other, non-ATP-related functions are intimately involved with most of the major metabolic pathways used by a cell to build, break down, and recycle its molecular building blocks. Cells cannot even make the RNA and DNA they need to grow and function with out mitochondria. The building blocks of RNA and DNA are purines and pyrimidines. Mitochondria contain the rate-limiting enzymes for pyrimidine biosynthesis (dihydroorotate dehydrogenase) and home synthesis (d-amino levulinic acid synthetase) required to make hemoglobin. In the liver, mitochondria are specialized to detoxify ammonia in the urea cycle. Mitochondria are also required for cholesterol metabolism, for estrogen and testosterone synthesis, for neurotransmitter metabolism, and for free radical production and detoxification. They do all this in addition to breaking down (oxidizing) the fat, protein, and carbohydrates we eat and drink.
Defining Mitochondrial DiseaseMitochondrial diseases are the result of either inherited or spontaneous mutations in mtDNA or nDNA which lead to altered functions of the proteins or RNA molecules that normally reside in mitochondria. Problems with mitochondrial function, however, may only affect certain tissues as a result of factors occurring during development and growth that we do not yet understand. Even when tissue-specific isoforms of mitochondrial proteins are considered, it is difficult to explain the variable patterns of affected organ systems in the mitochondrial disease syndromes seen clinically.

Genocopies of Mitochondrial Disease
Because mitochondria perform so many different functions in different tissues, there are literally hundreds of different mitochondrial diseases. Each disorder produces a spectrum of abnormalities that can be confusing to both patients and physicians in early stages of diagnosis. Because of the complex interplay between the hundreds of genes and cells that must cooperate to keep our metabolic machinery running smoothly, it is a hallmark of mitochondrial diseases that identical mtDNA mutations may not produce identical diseases. Genocopies are diseases that are caused by the same mutation but which may not look the same clinically.

Phenocopies of Mitochondrial Disease
The converse is also true: different mutations in mtDNA and nDNA can lead to the same diseases. In genetics, these are known as phenocopies. A good example is Leigh syndrome, which can be caused by about a dozen different gene defects. Leigh syndrome, originally a neuropathological description of the brain of one affected child, was described by Denis Leigh, the distinguished British physician, in 1951. It is characterized by bilaterally symmetrical MRI abnormalities in the brain stem, cerebellum, and basal ganglia, and often accompanied by elevated lactic acid levels in the blood or cerebrospinal fluid. Leigh syndrome may be caused by the NARP mutation, the MERRF mutation, complex I deficiency, cytochrome oxidase (COX) deficiency, pyruvate dehydrogenase (PDH) deficiency, and other unmapped DNA changes. Not all children with these DNA abnormalities will go on to develop Leigh syndrome, however.

Mitochondrial diseases are even more complex in adults because detectable changes in mtDNA occur as we age and, conversely, the aging process itself may result from deteriorating mitochondrial function. There is a broad spectrum of metabolic, inherited and acquired disorders in adults in which abnormal mitochondrial function has been postulated or demonstrated.
Adapted/selected sections from Robert Naviaux's "Overview, the Spectrum of Mitochondrial Disease" in the Mitochondrial and Metabolic Disorders, Primary Care Physician's Guide, second edition.

Friday, September 17, 2010

Wrong, again

My chiropractor wasn't convinced my ribs were in the wrong place and ordered x-rays. If you read the title of this post, you've probably figured out that they came back showing that the ribs did not move after all, so they are not what's causing the pain. Which naturally begs the question, "So what's causing the pain?" Great question, still no answer. Anyone tired of that answer yet? Dr. Miller (chiro) thinks (and has for some time now) that something is going on with my internal organs, specifically pancreas and liver but so far nothing is showing up on any of the tests. He is frustrated, my mom says join the club! Ha ha. We did hit the 18 month mark this week, so I see her point. I was really doing well with everything, but tonight is hard. It's hard to be in pain with no answers, coupled with worrying/praying about the Floors who are back at the hospital with a blood clot in Troy's lung. We are praising God that they found the clot and that he is CANCER-FREE, yet it is so hard to see them have to deal with yet another issue. Please, please pray for them this weekend. Blood clots can be serious and we haven't heard anything since they arrived at the hospital. If you think of it, please also pray for my appointments this week. I have SIX appointments this week, with the big ones being neuropsychologist on Monday, geneticist and endocrinologist on Thursday (the rest are minor). Pray for answers of some sort, ANY sort this week, or the strength to bear not knowing anything more and wisdom to figure out where to go from here.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

I'm not sure if I'm to the point of laughing about my situation because its funny all the strange things that can happen to a person and God's giving me a wonderful perspective on our situation, or if I'm losing my mind. Either way, laughter is the theme of the day today. I found out today that not one, but two of my ribs have moved out of alignment. Really? Yes, really! Now, don't get me wrong, this can cause quite a bit of pain, especially when I try to take a deep breath or am in certain positions, but I just have to laugh. This is the "straw that broke the camel's back" in a week of really bad kidney pain that nearly led to the ER (finally discovered that was being caused by one of my meds) and really bad stomach pain that has yet to be diagnosed so we're just going to hang out with some vicodin until the genetic test come back. Or perhaps it is because God has shown me the amazing, generous side of people. We now have twelve dozen ears of corn in our freezer and were told this week to make room for part of a cow that's heading our way later this month thanks to a few friends. What a blessing! We also learned that it will be cheaper for us to stay in our house than to move, and that there might be a job opportunity available for Scott. I know in the last post I said I didn't want him to go back to work, and ideally I don't; but this job would pay for his tuition and he could move into an engineering job when he graduated. We'll see what happens. I mean, ideally, I'd get better and just go back to work myself, but let's be honest things aren't looking good, are they? All in all, God's proven Himself time and again. I have a tendency to get flustered and a little freaked out at times over what the future holds, but I hold tightly to the promises that no matter what, He will be faithful regardless of what the tests show. Two more weeks and hopefully we will know what in the world is going on inside my body.
PS On a VERY happy note: Troy Floor went back to work part-time this week! He is doing well overall; please pray that their family would continue on a path towards good health.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Hi blog readers! I think you've been praying, for that is the only way I can explain how calmly Scott and I have been able to navigate through this week. It's been a pretty rough one. We found out on Sunday that due to budget cuts our COBRA insurance will actually need to start in October, even though I still hold a teaching contract. Yep, talk about a BIG shock to the system especially after the whole flea incident. Oh, and did I mention I read about that as I was driving to buy a new sweeper because the flea powder killed the other one? Not safe, I know, but I mostly read at stoplights. We are officially in full-fledged, batten-down-the-hatches, don't-spend-a-dime-unless-it's-required mode. We did learn that we can get COBRA for just me for *only* $8,000, which believe it or not is a blessing. That's much better than the $20,000 it is for the whole family. We've talked to a few insurance agents this week to look at plans for the rest of the family and we will go back to school loans for Scott's education (our goal was to not take any more out). We talked about Scott working for insurance purposes only, but we're afraid he'd never finish his degree. We've come so far and sacrificed so much, he NEEDS to get that piece of paper! :-) We are also meeting with our awesome realtor on Friday and considering selling our house. We love our house, but 1) I really need a ranch or at least a master bedroom on the main floor and 2) God has blessed us with awesome budgeting skills, but we can only make disability checks go so far. We aren't so tied to this house as to stay in it and give up on Scott's dream of becoming an engineer. We aren't sure if we will put it on the market or not, it all depends on if it makes financial sense and if we feel that is what God wants us to do. Please pray for wisdom and physical strength. All of the extra work and phone calls this week has taken its toll on me and my body and I are fighting each other. I've got things to do, but it won't let me! On a happy note, Katie and Ryan are having a GREAT year at school so far and we just couldn't be happier! Such a blessing!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

No stinkin' way, seriously?!

This has been some week. It started out with some good old-fashioned worry and stress over finances as we debate/discuss whether or not Scott should look for a job (and therefore drop out of school or only take a few night classes, thus prolonging the school process) because of how expensive COBRA insurance will be if I'm not able to get back to work before March. I'm no longer insurable unless we get health insurance through COBRA (we're talking $18,000/year!) or an employee-sponsored plan. Add in the fun of being videotaped for the upcoming sermon series at church, which I really did not want to do, but felt God was calling me to do and all of the nervousness that goes along with knowing 2500 people would hear what I have to say. Then throw in some added sharp stomach pain as a new symptom (no, not from the previously mentioned stress, unfortunately), plus just our typical life struggles of dealing with this illness then add in some fleas that Scott picked up at camp on Thursday and there is our week. That's right, we now have FLEAS in our house and one of our cars! He was up mowing the camp his parents run while they were on vacation and somehow brought home some little friends. He didn't realize it until he went to pick Ryan up from kdg. the next day (several in the van he'd driven to camp). Needless to say, he's been going to great lengths all weekend to try to get rid of them. He feels so badly about it, and I can't really be around strong chemicals (I have a hard time breathing around regular cleaners!), but we have family in town and we were able to go back and forth between the two houses. Please pray that the fleas are now GONE, for wisdom as we try to discern God's will regarding Scott's school/work/maybe I'll just get better before then?, and patience while waiting for the genetics appointment. Four more weeks seems like an eternity.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Blood drawn, let's wait some more!

You know it's been a long time between blog posts when you have to go back and read your last posting to see where you left off last. Oops! Sorry about that! Life gets in the way, as you know. The end of summer was a busy time for us, with the kids going to camp and getting ready for school. Ryan started kindergarten this week and Katie started second grade. We are very pleased with their teachers and think it will be a great year for them. I was able to get my blood drawn for all of the labs (20 vials over 2 days), so we are on our way (maybe??) to answers. I did get a few of them back already and found out my lactic acid is low (that's a good thing, might rule out 1-2 of the mito. diseases; only 38 more to go!), my pyruvate level is low (not so good, we think but don't know for sure; think it means the red blood cells in my body are dying faster than they are supposed to) and my carnitine level is high (no clue as to whether that's good or bad). I will "officially" get the results of all of the tests Sept. 23, so we have awhile to wait yet. Yesterday was the 18 month mark of my first hospital stay, the date we use for the start of all of this. I can't believe it has been that long already! When I first go sick, I thought I'd be able to go back to work before the end of that school year. Now here we are with just 6 months to go before my contract will expire and I am just as sick, if not worse, than I was then. I am so blessed that my job is held for so long, and even more so that my student teacher will continue on as my sub, but nevertheless I don't understand why I'm not the one there. Today is a hard day for understanding; I know in my head that I'm not called to understand, but to trust that God has a bigger plan. Right now I don't like His plan very much. So I will throw my little temper tantrum for a few minutes, then give it back to Him. Because He sees the whole picture, and I can only see my little part and I know that He knows what is best for me.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Still Waiting

Not a whole lot new to report hear on my end. I'm still waiting to get the green light from insurance to have my blood drawn for the mitochondrial labs. I have other labs that need to be done as well that I have been putting off in hopes that I could do them all at once, but I may go ahead and get them done this next week: my hair has been falling out since the beginning of June so that's what those labs are for. Lucky for me, I had a lot to start with, so no one has noticed yet except for me, but we are talking major hair loss at this point...I think I could knit a scarf or child-sized sweater from all the hair I've lost! The upside is, I can straighten my hair in just two layers instead of three; the downside is, there doesn't seem to be an end to this and I can't say I'm a fan. It could just be stress; however, my stress level didn't really go up at all (well, until about a week ago when I found about about the mito. thing!). Anyway, the summer is marching on here at our house and I can't believe that school starts up again in just a few weeks! I hope you are enjoying your summer and staying cool! Karin
PS For those of you who are tracking the Floor family, his surgery went well and he is recovering nicely. Praise God! His sense of humor is fully intact and they are updating their blog frequently: thefloorfour.blogspot.com

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Coincidence? I think not.

I don't believe it coincidences, and this week just affirms that. So much has happened in the last three days, I will try to summarize as best as I can without being long-winded.



On Sunday, some of the elders at our church, family, and friends gathered to pray over me. It's something I've been thinking about for some time now, but wasn't really sure if I was "sick enough." Since we are at 17 months now, I figured it's time and contacted the church last week. It was an amazing time of prayer and I felt God's presence and so much peace! I know some of you couldn't make it but were praying from afar, and I so appreciate and cherish those prayers.



On Monday, I went back to Dr. Gladd to get my adrenal gland results. We've been praying that they would show something, anything, so that we know what we are dealing with and could start moving forward. God answered those prayers! My adrenal glands are barely functioning, which is causing my extreme fatigue and very low metabolism (for you medical people out there, 24 hour cortisol level = 10, should be between 23-42). I also have three parasites in my digestive system, which may be part of the problem. We are going after these problems with gusto, and I am also back on a gluten-free diet for 3-6 months just to try and help calm my immune system down (I showed a small gluten-sensitivity, not high enough to need to avoid gluten long-term, YES!).

On Tuesday, I went to see Dr. Bader, the geneticist. If you recall, I was sent to see her because another doctor thought I might have Elhers-Danlos Syndrome. Well, I do have type III EDS and she also thinks I have another genetic disorder, Mitochondrial Disease. In the onslaught of information and questions I totally forgot to ask what to do about the EDS, so we will have to get to that another day. In the meantime, I will soon be going to have a ton of labs drawn which will be sent all over the country. Results will come back in about 6-8 weeks. I've not had a lot of time to research Mitochondrial Disease, but I'm not loving what I've read so far. However, if there is one thing I've learned in the last year and a half, it is not to get ahead of myself. As I've told Katie many times, "Worrying does not help the situation and is, in fact, sinful. God does not want you to worry, because He tells us in the Bible that He will take care of us."

Do I think it is a coincidence that I was sent to a geneticist for one thing, only to have them "suddenly discover" something else? Um, nope. I also do not think it is a coincidence that we are finally starting to get answers the very day after the elders prayed for me. You see, my God is a God who carefully orchestrates everything, including all of the events in my life. I trust Him, and I am resting in His loving arms, and it feels so much better than worrying (trust me, I've tried both!!). For those prayer warriors out there please pray for:
1) tolerance of the parasite med. for the next 10 days, the first dose did not go well (nauseous)
2) patience-the kids are starting to wonder why God isn't answering their prayers for mommy to get better, so pray for their patience, as well as our patience while we wait for answers
3) increased energy and stamina - it seems to be decreasing for some reason
4) The Floors- Troy's surgery is next Tuesday at 12:30; hopefully the FINAL leg of their cancer journey!
Thank you so much, Karin

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Genetics Appointment

My appointment with Dr. Bader is SET! I've gotten a little impatient with waiting for the referral from Dr. Fortin's office (no surprise there) so I went ahead and called myself today. They let me make the appointment myself and it is NEXT Tuesday at 10:00!! Hooray! I am so thankful I can get in that early! I have no idea what to expect or if they will do testing then or at a future appointment, but I am thrilled to get the ball rolling. My dad started doing his own research Tuesday night and found some information on the John Ritter Foundation website (as you may recall, John Ritter died suddenly of an aortic aneurysm a few years back, the exact same kind my dad has). Long story short, he has been talking with a genetic counselor he found through the Foundation and she wants to include him in the research study she is doing at the University of Texas and will be testing his DNA for FREE! How cool is that?? She is interested in what becomes of my testing as well and I will be contacting her soon. Good news all the way around today!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Psalm 77

This Psalm so accurately reflects my own emotional roller coaster today. Its conclusion is the same as mine, and I will remember the miracles of long ago and He who led His people like a flock. I will trust in the Lord my God, for He has a plan for my life. He formed me in my mother's womb and does not make mistakes. What may be news to me today is not news to him and I will hold tightly to the promise that He has a plan.

Psalm 77

For the director of music. For Jeduthun. Of Asaph. A psalm.

1 I cried out to God for help;
I cried out to God to hear me.

2 When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
at night I stretched out untiring hands
and my soul refused to be comforted.

3 I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
I mused, and my spirit grew faint. Selah

4 You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.

5 I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;

6 I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart mused and my spirit inquired:

7 "Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?

8 Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?

9 Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his compassion?" Selah

10 Then I thought, "To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the Most High."

11 I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.

12 I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.

13 Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?

14 You are the God who performs miracles;
you display your power among the peoples.

15 With your mighty arm you redeemed your people,
the descendants of Jacob and Joseph. Selah

16 The waters saw you, O God,
the waters saw you and writhed;
the very depths were convulsed.

17 The clouds poured down water,
the skies resounded with thunder;
your arrows flashed back and forth.

18 Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind,
your lightning lit up the world;
the earth trembled and quaked.

19 Your path led through the sea,
your way through the mighty waters,
though your footprints were not seen.

20 You led your people like a flock
by the hand of Moses and Aaron.

Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome

July is full of doctor's appointments, and today was the first one. It was supposed to be a follow-up appointment for my third block (which went very well after the second day, by the way). Instead, the physician's assistant may have made a diagnosis. She is "95% sure" I have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, a genetic disorder. I once told my family doctor, "I feel like my entire body is falling apart," and that's sort of what is happening. EDS is a genetic disorder where the collagen was not properly formed when I was born. Collagen makes up your ligaments, skin, organs, etc. so all of the joint problems, bruising, etc that I've had since I was a child could be included in this. I really can't explain it well, so I am going to include a link that will. There are 7 different types of EDS. The big concern is the vascular type, as it includes aneurysms and is fatal. Since my father has an aortic aneurysm, that is a possibility for me as well. I will need to see a geneticist to find out if I do, in fact, have EDS. Please pray for answers, I'm not known for loving to live in the unknown. For more info on EDS: http://http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/ehlers-danlos-syndrome/DS00706

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Karin had her third treatment today. She is in pain but doing well. Troy has his last treatment tomorrow. Please pray.


Scott

Sunday, June 13, 2010

The Floor family

Please pray for the Floor family. I know I've mentioned them before and they are really struggling right now. They've updated their blog and need all the prayers they can possibly get. You can read more at: www.thefloorfour.blogspot.com Also, Pathway Community Church is looking for volunteers to help with cleaning, meals, yard work, etc. so if you are interested in getting on that schedule, you can contact them. Thanks!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Very fast post, nerve block at 1PM

Our internet has been down, so just a quick post from my parents' house to let everyone know I am having another nerve root block at 1pm today. I will have a third and final one next Wednesday. I've really upped my salt intake the past 24 hours to try and raise my blood pressure, so hopefully they will be able to give me more meds and I won't feel and remember the whole thing this time. Thanks for the prayers! Karin

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

"Oops, I Did it Again" and "I'm So Gladd"

Two posts for the price of one today, folks!

Okay, so apparently I'm not as invincible as I thought. I was really doing well last week. Anyone want to guess what happened? That's right, I overdid it...again. Anyone surprised? Me neither. It meant missing out on a boat ride at the lake and laying really low, but considering the view from the couch up there, I really can't complain. It is much better than the view from our couch, that's for sure. Anyway, I'm still recuperating and don't have all of my energy back, but I'm at a functioning level, so I'm doing fine. The kids and I have spent a lot of time reading quietly (I LOVE that they can both read now!), which is great for everyone.

Part two: Yesterday, I finally got to see Dr. Gladd. I've been waiting to see him since November; that is how long the waiting list is to see him. Amazing that a doctor can be so popular, isn't it? He was well worth the wait. He seems to think that all of these problems are stemming from my adrenal glands (sound familiar? He's the 3rd or 4th doctor to say that, though I didn't tell him that); however, he is going to test it in a completely different way. He is running a bunch of different tests, but before I do that I get to eat LOTS of gluten for the next two weeks! Yippee!!! I promptly picked up cinnamon rolls on my way home, I was so excited! Anyway, he also made a change in my blood pressure medications, as one of them is basically telling my adrenal glands, "Thanks, but no thanks, we don't need you today." He replaced it with a licorice root supplement, so we will see how that goes. The Rx doesn't really seem to be doing much (my bp was 83/40 Monday) so we will see if this helps. Tomorrow I go back for the follow-up appointment about the nerve block, which is already starting to wear off (pain and nausea returning). I believe we will schedule the second block as well. Not looking forward to that at all, as it was so painful, but at least I know it works and for that I am thankful. I have much to be thankful for, and I'm reminded of that often.

One last thing, Happy Anniversary to my fantastic brother and sister-in-law! Nine years ago today they were married, and they are a wonderful, Godly couple and great parents to four terrific boys. Congratulations, Rob and Jenny!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Busy Little Bees

I am happy to report that the nerve block appears to be working! I've been pain-free for about a week now, and the nausea is much-reduced. I've also been allowed to start back up on the Curves vitamins (for the B5, D and calcium deficiencies). As a result, I've been taking full advantage of less pain/more energy and the kids and I have been busy! Both of them are now out of school, so we've had fun at the park and in the backyard: them running around, me sitting working on my tan...hey that can be very tiring! I still need lots of rest both at night and during the day, but it feels sooo good to not be on the couch all day. It has also given Scott the chance to fill in for his old company here and there when guys are on vacation, giving him time in the "real world" and our family some extra income. Double blessing! We're praying for continued improvement over the next month, as I'd really like to return to work at the beginning of the school year if I'm to go back. Next week I will see Dr. Gladd, which I'm very excited about, as well as have my follow-up appointment with Dr. Fortin. Have a fun and safe holiday weekend!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Pain, Pain Go Away

My nerve block yesterday went well, technically speaking. They put the needles in the right spot, I am alive and well, and we are waiting to see if it worked. The meds they gave me via IV to keep me from remembering anything or feeling anything, however, did not do their job as they could only give me a small amount (due to low blood pressure) and I felt every needle go in (very painful, btw) and heard the entire conversation (the nurses were talking about dog-sitting, the doctor thought they were talking about a kid escaping from the house, I kept telling them, "This hurts!" and "I feel like I'm going to fall off the table" because it was slanted). Since then, I've been in a lot of pain. Today is a bit better, but not by much. The steroids have not yet kicked in (2-5 days), so I am just toughing it out as much as I can until they kick in. Then we will know if the procedure worked or not. I am able to start taking my Curves viatmins and supplements again, so I am excited to see if I feel as good as I did last time. In less than a week, Iwas feeling really great when I started them earlier, but then had to stop to prep for the nerve block. We just might be heading in the right direction!
On a happier note, my grandma went to the doctor yesterday are her lungs and heart both sound clear. She will have a chest x-ray next month to see if the pneumonia is really gone or not. She also only lost 1/2 lb since her last visit a week ago, which is fantastic. At her size, every pound counts!
I am praying for the many FWCS families that are affected by the lay-off notices that went out last week. I've been in that situation before, and I know how tough it is to deal with that and figure out what your family is going to do. While we may be surprised, God is not and He has a plan for this. He will see you through this if you will choose to follow his plan through to fruition.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Selective Nerve Root Block, Whoot Whoot!

Oh yeah, let' s get pumped for nerve blocks! Okay, so I'm actually a little scared about needles in my back, but if it means eating without pain, I can't wait! Since the discography was denied (twice) by my insurance, the spine drs. are going to try a Selective Nerve Root Block on my T8 and T9 areas on Monday to try to block the pain as it wraps around to my stomach. Basically they will inject numbing medication and steroids in there. The best part (in my opinion) is that prior to the procedure, they hook me up to an IV and give me some stuff that makes me feel NO PAIN! That's right, I will be completely pain-free, for a few hours, at least. Can I just say, I've only been completely pain-free for one day in the last 14.5 months? I can't wait!!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Great is Thy Faithfulness...

Oh, that old classic hymn... how I love it! It has been going through my mind so much lately. God continues to be faithful to us, despite life's loops. My heart rate has been acting up a lot lately (way high, then way low, much faster when I inhale, then much slower when I exhale), and my stomach is back to being out of whack again; the discography was denied by insurance, so we are fighting that and in the meantime I'm not able to take the only things that actually seemed to be helping (the vitamin supplements). My grandmother is very, very ill and we are faced with the fact that she is most likely dying, and two close friends are battling cancer. My heart is so heavy that many nights I'm up late into the night, silently weeping and praying for them and many others not mentioned here. Yet God remains faithful, to us and to their families as well.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Update

The time between my birthday and Katie's goes by so quickly, so forgive me for neglecting the blog. Today was Katie's "friends" party and tomorrow is the family party, so I feel like we are finally getting back to normal.


Thanks to a wonderful husband, family and friends, I had a fantastic birthday!! As several of you already know, it even included a surprise birthday party at my parents' house with several friends and NO KIDS! We had a wonderful time eating, laughing and just hanging out together and I feel so blessed.




Last week, I went back to the endocrinologist's to get my lab results from all of the tests he ordered. All of them looked great except for three: my vitamin D was very low, my calcium was borderline, and my vitamin B5 was very very low. For B5 to be low but all the other B vitamins to be normal is extremely rare and usually only seen in malnourished people (think third world countries). B5 is important for several functions, so I am hopeful that supplements for B5 (as well as the others) helps. I also saw Dr. Fortin, the spine doctor, and found out that I have degenerative disc disease in three of my discs. These are the same discs that connect the nerves to the stomach area so he said it is very possible that this is causing some/all of the stomach pain. I will have a test on May 3 to investigate.

Overall, I've felt better this week and seem to have more energy. I am praying that it is due to the meds/supplements and not just a random good week. Don't get me wrong, I'm still thankful if it IS a random good week, but I'd be just delighted if I continued to improve!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

CC Update, sorry so late

Hard to believe another week has gone by already! Once again, I've tried to do too much this week and it has totally backfired, causing 2 1/2 days on the couch (hence the delayed post). The trip to Cleveland was a good one overall. The weather was beautiful, the doctors intelligent, and the wait time to see them was minimal. All 3 drs. think the stomach problems are caused by my autonomic nervous system dysfunction and think I should try a celiac plexus block, where they block the nerves that wrap around from my back to a specific part of my stomach (the celiac plexus, I'd assume). There is actually a dr. here in town, Dr. Fortin, that can do that and has trained some of the drs. from CC. I've met with him once and will see him again later this month after getting an MRI of my spine and more blood work done this Friday. Also, Dr. Fuoad added another medication, midodrine, that contricts my blood vessels to try and raise my blood pressure more. It seems to work a tiny bit, but not a whole lot. They did an hour-long trial run while I was there and my bp was consistenly in the 90s/50s, so it is still pretty low even with the midodrine, florinef and compression socks. Makes me wonder what it would be without all of that?!
The gluten-free diet seems to be going pretty well, all things considered. It is very helpful to have a friend/neighbor to swap recipes, ingredients and food with! I can't imagine doing this on my own. I think trying to make bread from scratch, a separate meal for me each night, etc. is part of why my body is rebelling, so Mandy and I are going to Casa's tomorrow night for a GF pasta dinner to plan out some GF freezer meals we will make several batches of so that this whole thing will be a little (or a LOT!) easier.
Otherwise, it's a typical spring in our house...the kids are enjoying lots of time outside playing, Scott is about ready to pull his hair out and be finished with his current classes, and Katie and I are excited about our upcoming BIRTHDAYS! Scott's mom and I will celebrate ours on the 14th, and Katie will turn 7 on the 25th. I love birthdays!!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Gluten-free/Cleveland again/Happy Easter!

Random title, huh? That could be due to the fact that I am physically exhausted tonight, but I know I won't get a chance to blog until at least Monday when I'm back in Cleveland so I wanted to get an update out.
First, I've decided to try a gluten-free diet. I've toyed with the idea for several months, and really didn't want to do it unless I really needed to but after the whole "percocet to eat or drink" thing, I figured it was time to bite the bullet. The good news is, my neighbor Amanda has joined me! What a God-send it has been to have someone go through this with me! She has some minor experience with a gluten-free diet, and we've been swapping ingredients and sharing dishes we've prepared all week to help each other out. We even made Healthy Hostess cupcakes today to take for Easter and they were pretty good! I've really been overdoing it this week, though, with trying to make separate meals for myself and making extra trips to the store for special ingredients. I've also spent 5 hours at the Dupont Lab for blood work, with 25 vials being taken in all. It was only supposed to be 22, but three get frozen and sent to Mayo Clinic and Mayo didn't refrigerate them quickly enough so I had to go back. Dupont folks felt bad since it wasn't there fault, and I sure didn't blame them, but I need rest! I won't be able to continue at this pace for much longer, but emotionally I feel great! It is so nice to be spending so much time with a friend, as well as the many other neighbors as all of the kids run around in the beautiful weather.
Next week, my mom and I will leave for Cleveland around 5:30AM for my first appointment. I will be seeing three different doctors this time, as well as having an echocardiagram so we will be there for two days. I think that is all that is scheduled at this point, but usually they add a few things while I am there.
This weekend is Easter, my favorite holiday of all. How can it not be, when I am celebrating my Savior dying on a cross for MY pride, arrogance, fear, lies, and the multitude of other sins followed by His holy Resurrection on Easter morning? Take time to really think about what this weekend represents. God has been so gracious to each of us, giving us far more than we ever deserve, and by His grace taking the punishment that we truly deserve. Amazing, isn't it? Happy Easter!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Is it possible? Really? No way!

I can't believe it, but I think I found a super-smart doctor here in Fort Wayne! I've been waiting since November to see an endocrinologist, Dr. Karas, and I can heartily say he was worth the wait. He spent over an hour and a half asking me questions, going through my record, looking up possible and current diagnoses on the computer, etc. I was so impressed! He has a few different ideas of what we might be dealing with, all of which are really rare which is probably why no one has mentioned them before. I'm not 100% sure these are all spelled correctly, but I am having lab work done on Monday for the following diseases:
~porphyria (a hemoglobin issue)
~pheochromocytoma
~post-prandial tachycardia
~mastocytosis
He's also ordering labs to check my vitamin B and D levels, and some other stuff. I tried to go get the labs done at the hospital today, but I guess the right people won't be there until Monday (that's how specific these tests are).
We had a great time visiting with Eddie and Amanda yesterday. We are so glad they were able to make it! Oh, and babysitting went very well, too. The babies were just as sweet and adorable as can be, and the older four kids had a great time watching "Bolt." I sure had a great time, and Grant told me I was the best! Oh, my heart is full of joy. :-)

Thursday, March 25, 2010

So super smart doctors CAN have personalities...

We have proof! The "super smart doctors" (as the kids call them) usually are very smart, but don't always much in the way of personality. That's okay, so long as they can figure me out, but it is refreshing when you can find one that is smart AND has a personality and that is what we found in Dr. Marrerro, motility specialist at CC. He said that my stomach issues could be caused by a problem with the blood flow in the arteries around my stomach (blockage, flow issues, etc) and ordered an ultrasound of those arteries. He also said that since all of the other tests keep coming back negative, we are going to try a new approach rather than continuing to do the same thing. He has had great success with having a pain management specialist do a nerve block test to isolate and locate where exactly the pain is coming from (stomach, pancreas, etc) and then make a treatment plan from there. The good news is, the scans and his exams don't show any signs of it being a tumor/cancer or anything that is life-threatening. We like knowing that! :-) I was able to get the artery scan done yesterday and it looked good, and I will see the pain specialist when I go back on April 5th/6th. Yesterday was a very long day for my mother-in-law and I, but it seemed to be a productive one, so we were both pleased. I am so blessed to have in-laws who love me nearly as much as my own parents. I know that is not common, and I try not to take it for granted!
As usual after a CC trip, I'm pretty tired today so Ryan and I are laying low. Thank you, God, for a low-maintenance, go-with-the-flow son!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Crazy week

This week is crazy busy, but is starting off on the right foot. Yesterday, I made it to church (always a toss-up), Purdue won, and some friends from small group dropped by with some yummy meals for us! Tonight, the board meeting for my school district voted on the $15 million in cuts. It is hard to fathom how much this will affect the district, and I'd heard they could eliminate teachers as high as 4th year seniority, which would include me. Granted, I'm not working right now, but I am considered "employed" and my job is being held until next March. Losing my job would have been devastating to our finances, but at this point it looks like I should be safe. God has heard our prayers, literally cries for help, and has chosen to answer them. I also have not needed the percocet last night or tonight, a big relief as I don't like taking pain meds when I don't know what's wrong.
Tomorrow, Scott's mom and I will head up to their camp for the night, then leave at 5AM Wednesday for Cleveland. As of right now, I only have a consultation with the gastric motility doctor but he may order tests yet.
Thursday I'm sure I will be on the couch recuperating from the trip, as I do after each trip to CC (movie day for the kids, they will be SO happy!), and Friday is the BEST!
FRIDAY: I see the endocrinologist, Scott's younger sister, Amanda and boyfriend Eddie will be in town for the day from DC, so we will get to see them most of the day, PLUS Scott's older sister and fam; also, I get to babysit for my four nephews for two hours (don't worry, two will be sleeping while the older kids watch a movie in their jammies). Whew! Like I said, crazy week, but full of some great things!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Whoops!

I called what I thought was the new dr at CC this morning and spoke to his nurse, who told me she would need to talk to him and call me back. Several hours later, she called me and told me that he was not the doctor I was supposed to see in a few weeks, that somehow I was transferred to the wrong doctor back in February when the appointment was made. Whoops! She was able to help me get transferred to the appointment scheduler for the correct doctor, who informed me the first available appointment was May 2. When I explained my situation to her, she was great and transferred me to the new/correct doctor's nurse who was appalled to hear that I was previously on lidocaine to numb my stomach so I could eat/drink and now was on percocet to eat/drink. She could not get me in to see him during my April 5/6 visit, but I now have an appointment for next Wednesday. In the meantime, I will just have to bear the pain as much as possible and take the percocet when I absolutely have to. The pain today has been worse and I finally took my first dose of percocet. It must be a low dose (or I have a high tolerance) because it only made me a little sleepy and I coped pretty well. It also didn't take the pain away completely, but enough that I can function. It's not an ideal situation, but at least he can see me sooner rather than later. Now I just need to find a fax machine so I can fax him my medical records. He wants to review them before I get there, so he can order tests, etc ahead of time, which I think is just wonderful! So if anyone has a fax machine handy, please let me know! Thanks!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Out of the ER, off to the Dr

After Ry's kindergarten round-up, my MIL dropped me off at the ER like my doctor requested. I was pretty sure nothing would come of the trip, but I went anyway. While I was there, the pain shot up to a 10 out of 10 after drinking some water to take one of my meds. They gave me two shots of strong pain meds (don't remember the name) and zofran, but they didn't help at all, at which point I asked them to call my dad (Scott was home with the kids, so I knew he couldn't come). By that point, I was in so much pain I was crying and shaking (ladies, imagine the pain of labor, without the contractions ever easing up). They did a CT scan, which came back fine so they released me after giving me a shot of benedryl and Demerol. I had an allergic reaction to the Demerol, so I took more benedryl when I got home, so I was pretty loopy! They also sent me home with a script for percocet, which I filled but haven't taken yet. I just find it hard to take percocet just to eat/drink so I am trying to do without. I DO need to eat and drink in order to take my heart meds, though, so we will see how the day progresses. I am following up with my internist, Dr. Agnihotri, today at 1:15 and I have no idea what he will say. He's already ordered and completed several tests, so I'm not sure what is left to do. On top of all of that, Ryan is home today with reactions from his immunizations yesterday, and Scott has his interview this afternoon so my mom is taking a half-day off of work to help us out, then Scott's mom is taking over in the evening. What a blessing to have family in town! Please pray for all of us today.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Heading to the ER

I talked to the gastro dr. at Cleveland Clinic that I will be seeing in a few weeks (he personally called me back, when does that ever happen??) and he wants me to go to the ER. So, that is where I will be heading, after I take Ryan to kindergarten round-up. Priorities, right? Besides, my stomach isn't that bad right now, since I haven't had anything to eat or drink in 3 hours. I figure, I will take him, then eat a little so I can take my meds, then be nice and in pain by the time I arrive at the hospital. I'm dragging my feet as I don't think anything will come of the trip, but I will be a good, obedient patient (this time!). I'll update later...

Spring Break/Anniversary/Update

Sorry for the long delay in posts, but last week was a blissful week of having Scott home all week, wonderful weather, and our 9th anniversary! It was so great to have him home and actually get to spend time as a four-some.
I'd planned on writing a long blog about all of the wonderful things we did together last week, but I am in so much pain right now that I can't really remember what we did last week. The extreme stomach pain that happens when I eat or drink anything (including water) came back yesterday. I thought I was just not feeling well due to a migraine Sunday night, but I realized last night that the pain only came after eating and it is continuing today. Once again, I feel pretty good until I eat or drink anything, then I am doubled over in pain. Please, God, take this pain away.
Please pray for Scott as he searches for a summer internship. He has an interview tomorrow in Van Wert, and has applied for a few here in town as well. Obviously, we would prefer one here, but we will be thankful for any he can get, especially if it helps lead to a job when he graduates. Thanks.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Mr. Sandman

Thank you all for your words of encouragement and prayers. I am doing better emotionally overall, and my stomach is much better now (miraculously, no one else in the family got sick, praise God!). The problems sleeping have gotten worse over the last month, to the point where the Ambien does nothing. I sleep about 3-4 hours each night, but Scott says I toss and turn even in my sleep so I don't know that I am getting any quality sleep. I am seeing the neurologist today and hopefully she will be able to help me out with that. This week it has been so bad I can barely take care of the kids, but they are so compassionate and willing to help. God has truly blessed us with great kids.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Today is the one-year anniversary of being sick. It is fitting, I suppose, that it's been a pretty lousy day all the way around. It's very isolating to be in a sitauation like this; even when people try to understand, how can I possibly put into words all that I think and feel and what exactly this is like?? There's no way to tell someone what it is like to not be able to tuck your kids in for an entire year, or be a loving and helpful wife, or not be able to go to work, or not be able to make solid plans to volunteer or go somewhere or do something because you don't know how you will feel that day. How do you describe what it is like to lay on the couch most days and feel like you have absolutely no purpose in life right now? It stinks, that's how it feels.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Test results

Test results came in via phone call on Tuesday, but I've been battling the stomach flu all week so I will be keeping this short. I've lost 7 1/2 lbs since Monday afternoon and still struggling with getting very much fluids in, leading to dizziness, high heart rate (150 bpm) and dehydration. Anyway, the test results show venous pooling, bowing of my mitral valve and an autonomic nervous system dysfunction (better than disease). I haven't had a chance to look into what exactly all of that means yet. The nurse said Dr. Fouad wants to increase my atenolol and add midodrine to the mix, not too excited about increasing or adding meds, but if it makes me better I will do it. In-laws have helped greatly with the kids, so they've spent most of the week away from the house and me--everyone else therefore seems to be avoiding the flu. Prayers appreciated that it stays that way and I get better soon. I'm all for weight loss, but not like this.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

No results yet, approaching the one-year mark

Test results aren't in yet and next week marks the one year anniversary of getting sick, so I've taken some time this week to ponder life before all of this. It's been very cathartic, and I've really led a blessed life. I've travelled to many great places, have great friends (some of whom I've known for 17 years now, wow!), and have an amazing family. I took the time to go through most of our photo albums and picked a handful of pictures to share with all of you. After all, some of you (including most of our small group) don't even know me outside of this illness. I'm normally an active person...really! While we wait, here's something to look at:


HS youth group missions trip to Portugal; rafting trip with family;

skiing (4 weeks pregnant, oops!) with my cousin, Emily; the best day ever!!


Stonehenge-college trip with TU; Disney World, Ryan's dedication;

my HS tennis partner and I; Scott and I getting ready for prom!!





Boating at the lake; helping Ryan ride a pony;
tubing with friends; showing our muscles after my first (and so far only) 4 mile race

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Still No News

Still no test results yet from the hemodynamics tests. I called Dr. Fouad's office yesterday to see if they were done yet and also to ask what I ought to do when I get the sharp chest pains and have trouble breathing like I did over the weekend. They called back and told me the test results weren't in yet and that I need to go to the ER each time that happens...big bummer. I kind of had a feeling they might tell me that (hence my delay in calling them until AFTER I felt better!), but I was hoping they'd have another solution. I suppose I ought to be a good girl and follow their advice, so that will probably mean trips to the ER more frequently...not because I am worse but because I am actually going like they want me to instead of staying at home and being miserable. Thus far, my trips to the ER have been pointless, but maybe they can call Dr. Fouad from the ER and she can tell them what to do?? We will have to wait and see, I suppose. In the mean time, I can rejoice over a new baby in my extended family, the Floor's baby arriving safely this past weekend, another friend's pregnancy, and my "baby" reading an entire Little Critters book to me today! Blessings abound if we truly look for them, and today I am choosing to do so. God is good.

Monday, February 8, 2010

My mom recently gave me a great devotional book called "The God of All Comfort: Devotions of hope for those who chronically suffer." It has been such a great book for me. Yesterday's devotion was so fitting. Here is a small passage from it:
"Pain and weakness are selfish, demanding companions. Sometimes pain reverberates so loudly through my body that I'm unable to pray or read my Bible. As the paralytic needed his friends in order to reach Jesus, I need the friends who bring me before God in prayer. I need the strength of others when my own strength is lacking."

I was really having trouble breathing yesterday, even though I don't recall overdoing it. Such a big bummer when that happens, and it is very tiring. That passage above is so fitting some days. The pain is more localized for me and is more like a struggle to breathe and function, but you get the idea. Thank you for bringing me before God in prayer. There are some days when I know I need to but I just can't. Today it is easier to breathe, so I know someone must have been praying!

Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: if one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

I love rain checks, and other random thoughts

So much to share, so little time. Our internet was not working yesterday, and I am waiting to hear back from CC so I will be making this short (oh the joys of dial-up internet!) No real news to report, so just some randomness to share:
1) I love rain checks and you should too! On Monday, I bought 16 boxes of cereal for $0.27 each! We're talking the good stuff: Multi-grain Cheerios, Honey Nut Cheerios, etc. all because Kroger had a sale six months ago and were out of one kind of GM cereal. Their rain checks never expire and don't have a limit. We were out of cereal, so I went online, printed off a bunch of coupons and Voila! A fully stocked pantry.
2) Several of my friends have asked for the recipes for dishwasher detergent and laundry detergent. This is a great way to cut out chemicals, as well as save a TON of money. I found these online and wish I could give credit to the source, but I don't remember (sorry, brilliant person who is saving my family lots of cash!)
Dishwasher detergent:
1 Tbs borax
1 Tbs super washing soda (NOT baking soda)

That's it! Then put vinegar in your "jet-dry" dispenser so your glasses don't get spotty. Cost: $0.02 per load (That's $7 for the YEAR at our house!) I make a big batch and keep it under the sink.

Laundry detergent:
1/3 fels-naptha or ivory bar, grated
6 cups water
Heat until dissolved
Add 1/2 super washing soda and 1/2 cup borax (both found in laundry aisle). Cook for 15 minutes. Add 5 1/2 quarts of water (that's 22 cups). Shake before each use; regular load use 1/2 cup. One BATCH costs $0.75 (makes about 3 bottles of detergent).

That's about all I can think of right now. I'd better get off the "phone line" in case CC tries to get through. I look forward to the day when we can afford real internet, but not being in debt ALWAYS feels better than having fast internet! :-)

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Home Again

We are home again and I seem to be doing better than last time. We didn't do nearly as much walking as last time, which is probably what made the difference. My mother-in-law was quite the trooper, driving there and back, then getting up early this morning to cook for a retreat group at the church camp they manage.
I don't have a ton to report on about my tests or anything; they did change my blood volume test and hemodynamic test to a laying down/sitting up echocardiagrams, as the original tests are radioactive and so is the hyda scan I had in the afternoon. Hopefully, it will still show us what we need to know, but if not they will do them when I go back in April. The most interesting, amazing, and totally God thing that happened occurred in the waiting room a few minutes after we arrived. We were in the electrophysiology waiting room with a man and his mother; he was called back and his mom made a phone call. We started talking to her and I'd overheard her mention that her son was having some of the same tests, so we talked about that. Come to find out, not only is her son dealing with very similar symptoms as I am (and getting very few results as well), but they are all from Fort Wayne too! Can you believe it?? I was called back shortly after that, but Sue and Kathie (the man's mom) talked for quite awhile longer. When Kathie learned that Scott had planned a wonderful surprise party for my 30th birthday at DeBrands that he had to cancel because I was too sick to go, she whipped out her bag and handed over, get this... a box of DeBrands truffles! Apparently, she knows Cathy Brand-Beere and she donated several boxes of chocolates to Kathie and Matt for their trip, telling them to "donate the chocolates to anyone who is nice to you." Isn't that awesome? Anyway, I am hoping to stay in touch with Kathie and/or Matt and his family (married with 2 young kids) as we all go through this similar process. I hope you will join me in praying for them, as they struggle to get a diagnosis as well. Enjoy your weekend! Karin

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Road Trip with the MIL

This afternoon, my mother-in-law and I will head out on our first road trip together. For many people, this would be an agonizing experience, but I am extremely fortunate; I've always gotten along very well with my in-laws! I've heard so many horror stories from friends about in-laws, but truly have never experienced it. Thus, I am ready to show Sue what CC is all about! As I wait for the marathon of tests tomorrow, I am trying to relax and just remember Philippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the PEACE of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

A few random thoughts that don't really fit into this post:
1) Ten years ago today, my best friend proposed to me!! It has been an interesting, exhilarating, and fun decade! We have learned so much and grown so much as a couple. I am so thankful to have him as my husband.
2) Children's Place is having their $3.99 Monster Sale! Between my awesome sister-in-law who alerted me to it and myself, we nearly bought out one of our stores (EIGHT big bags total!) but Katie, Ryan, and her kids are pretty much set for the fall-winter next year. Don't forget to grab your 15% off coupon from the internet before you go!

I won't have a laptop with me, but I will try to post Friday night (unless I collapse from absolute exhaustion...then I will post Saturday AM). Thanks for joining me on this journey; it helps make it less lonely!!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Let's start off by saying I'm doing better emotionally this week. I haven't cried for at least three days, so hip hip hooray for that! I have no idea what the deal was last week; I think I was just overwhelmed with everything. This week is better.
Yesterday, I had a Cardiolite test at the Heart Center. It is basically a treadmill stress test with radioactive stuff put in my blood so they could take pictures of the blood pumping through my heart to see if it was pumping correctly and all. It was ordered by Dr. Fouad to be completed before my cardiac exercise program (which insurance won't cover, but we are working on that). I have the results back already, and everything looks good! I was absolutely wiped out after the test, though, and it is still so hard to breathe today. Keep in mind that I was only on the treadmill for 7 minutes. Oh, that is so sad. The man running the test asked me why I needed to stop, if my legs were tired, I was dizzy or what, and I told him that my legs were fine, but I was dizzy and could hardly breathe! Needless to say, Ryan and I are laying low today, watching movies and staying in our pjs. The stairs just look like Mt. Everest to me... there is no way I will be going up them again until it is time for me to go to bed. Thankfully, a friend of mine was going to the grocery today and picked up some things for us. Another one called just to check on me; several are praying. I feel loved.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Avoidance Issues

I've been avoiding this blog, in case you haven't noticed. I'm not sure exactly why; I think part of it has to do with Scott being back at school, so I'm busier with the kids and partly because I'm very emotional this week. For one reason or another, I've cried at least once every single day this week, most days multiple times. It all started on Monday when Scott (after reading an article on autonomic nervous system disorders) suggested that I shouldn't go on roller coasters anymore because of my blood pressure no longer stabilizing on its own. Yep, that was the beginning. I know that isn't really a big deal, and it's not like we go to amusement parks all the time (though I DO love roller coasters), and in the grand scheme of things, that really should be the least of my worries, but for some reason that really made things more real. As in, I might not get better. That's really hard to write. I'm trying not to get too far ahead of myself, and I know I haven't taken the ANS test yet, but everything just seems to line up a little too well. I also don't want my friends/family/blog-readers to think that I always have a positive attitude about my situation. The truth is, usually I do. Typically, I'm rolling with the punches and am leaning on God to get me through; I can even make light of the situation and find that silver lining! This week, however, I can't. I'm scared. I'm nervous, uptight, can't sleep, can't relax, but most of all, just plain old scared.
I also procrastinated on writing this week because I wasn't sure what my blog-readers wanted to read about while we wait to go back to Cleveland next week. For example, do you want to hear how our amazing little girl earned an Outstanding Otter award at her school this week for being responsible? Or chuckle as you imagine my kitchen floor covered in bits of carrots from a small explosion under my kitchen sink while I was making dinner and chasing my adorable two-year old nephew (aptly named Chase?) Or perhaps you want me to tell you that Ryan, at five, screamed like a banshee out of complete and total fear of the world's gentlest (is that a word? oh, I've been away from teaching for too long!) dog. Any advice, by the way, would be most helpful on that last one!!
Several people have asked me questions about autonomic nervous systems disorders, and I'm not very good at relaying the information (especially with my short-term memory being what it is right now). Here is an article that I found very helpful if you want more info:
http://www.dana.org/news/brainhealth/detail.aspx?id=9780
Thanks for joining me on this journey. It's nice to know I have so many people praying for me and willing to help me and my family!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Home Again

Mom and I got home last night after a tiring day at CC and a long drive home. I was really feeling the pain and chest pressure of all the walking and activity, and am still pretty worn out today. The appointment with Dr. Fouad, whose specialty is syncope and autonomic nervous system disorders, went pretty well. The way she asked for information was not very clear or chronological and things could have gone smoother on that end if, which made it frustrating for me, but as my dad put it, "you're not paying her for personality." She is one of the few doctors in the country that specializes in this area, so I am blessed that she is only a few hours away. She ordered a hemodynamic test, a blood volume test, an autonomic nervous system test, and prescribed support stockings and a cardiac exercise program. We were able to schedule the tests and my hyda scan all on the same day: January 29. I am pleased with the end result, and am hopeful that the tests will show what we need to show. Because Dr. Fouad is so specialized, we are having trouble getting my follow-up appointment scheduled. I am supposed to see her in three months, but her next available appointment is in May; if I am not able to return to work, I will lose my insurance next February, so I need to be diagnosed and cured (or at least done with testing and doctor appointments) by that point. Please pray that we get this timing issue worked out. Dr. Fouad's staff is supposedly going to create an appointment for me, even though she is booked solid, and call me with a date and time. I am praying that they do. Have a great weekend, all! Teacher-friends, enjoy your three day weekend and work day today!!!!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

You get what you pay for

In the world of medicine, you don't always get what you pay for. Here at the Cleveland Clinic, we are definitely getting our money's worth! Both doctors we met with today spent at least a full hour with us, looking through my binder (which they appreciated, yea!) and asking questions. Dr. Su, the GI doc, saw us right away even though we were 45 minutes early for our appointment. She is ordering a few tests, showed me a few exercises to stretch out my stomach for when it hurts, and wants to hear what the cardiac docs have to say. There are four possible causes of my stomach pain. I don't remember all of them and my notes are in the car, but one was that there may not be enough oxygen getting to my digestive organs causing them to not work correctly. Another is that my gall bladder opening may have closed up over the last few years (removed in'06) and that is somehow slowing down my system; I forget the other two. Anyway, the cardiac EP doctor spoke with me for an hour and determined that I have an autonomic nervous system disorder and was able to get me in to see Dr. Fouad tomorrow! She specializes in syncopy and autonomic nervous system disorders, and is the doctor I tried to get an appointment with originally (but couldn't see until Feb 23!). Thus, we are staying another night in Cleveland so that we can see this fantastic doctor. My appointment is at 1:15pm, but I am supposed to arrive early in case she wants to run tests before seeing me. Whatever these doctors are charging, they are well worth every penny. I feel like they are more than willing to get to the bottom of this once and for all and I am so thankful! Please pray for my appointment tomorrow and safe travels. Also continue to pray for Troy and Alicia. We saw them again today and they were both struggling. Troy was in a lot of pain and Alicia was looking weary as well. Here is a link to their blog: http://thefloorfour.blogspot.com

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

A Friend Named Wanda

Thanks to our new friend, "Wanda," mom and I arrived in Cleveland safe and sound. Wanda would be the GPS that mom's friend, Becky, let us borrow. Thank goodness she did, because the directions I had from mapquest were all kinds of crazy! We arrived just after 6pm and headed straight to the hospital to have dinner with Alicia (and her mom) and visit Troy. It was great catching up with Alicia and hear how she is holding up. She got to enjoy a pregnancy massage today, so that helped her relax, but she is not feeling very well (contracting, uncomfortable, etc) and is pretty sure she will be going into labor in the next week. Please pray that she makes it until they are home so that Troy can join her in the delivery room. After dinner, we went to Troy's room to visit him. I was amazed at how well he looked! He was able to eat a little bit today and cracked a joke or two, which shows that he is slowly improving. I am so thankful that God is healing my friend.
Now, mom and I are all checked into our hotel and enjoying some downtime. We were blessed enough to upgraded to the executive floor, which will include breakfast tomorrow, for free! Our room is really really nice, and I could get used to travelling like a business person. Please pray that we get some sleep tonight and that the appointments go well tomorrow. Thanks! Karin

Monday, January 11, 2010

Heading To Cleveland

Well, tomorrow's the big day! Sort of... Tomorrow, my mom and I will leave for the Cleveland Clinic. I'm excited, yet nervous about my appointments on Wednesday. I know God is going before us in all of this, and I can't wait to see what happens, yet what if they can't figure me out either? I didn't sleep much last night as the list of all I had yet to do ran through my head. I think it is so much harder to plan for a trip when you are a mom. There are schools to contact, emergency plans to make, schedules to create for the kids, husband, grandparents, myself, my mom/chauffeur/right-hand lady. I hope I don't end up forgetting something important, like the 3 inch binder I created that has all of my medical information in it! I will try to be patient and settle down so I don't wear myself out before I get everything accomplished. This verse, for example, is keeping away the nagging thoughts of "What if...?" "For I have learned to be content, whateve the circumstances. I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well-fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Phillipians 4:11b-13
Mom is taking her laptop (I think), so I will update the blog from Cleveland. If we have time, we will see Troy and Alicia tomorrow night. His surgery went well, but the recovery is very painful. Please continue to pray for this sweet couple. Thanks! Karin

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Countdown to Cleveland

Happy New Year to all! 2009 ended very well for me, as the last two days of the year were very good and I nearly felt normal! I took full advantage, meeting a friend at Olive Garden, eating more than my share at the New Years Eve party, even playing the Wii a little as well! Yes, I paid for it the next day, but it was glorious bliss to feel and act normal for a few days!!! I am clinging to those memories now, as yesterday and today have been about as bad as it can get, with my stomach and breathing tag-teaming me...and I think they might be winning.
Next Tuesday, my mom and I will be heading to Cleveland for my two appointments at the Cleveland Clinic on Wednesday. As I prepare for that appointment, I've been collecting papers from each of the doctors I've seen so far (a daunting task, to say the least!). Well, when the papers from my pulmonologist at the IU Med. Center arrived, along came the results from my stress test back in April and as I was reading them, I was surprised to learn that my maximum oxygen uptake was much much lower than it should have been. It went on to talk about that in more detail and how I have a high HR/VO2, and there might be an abnormality in my oxygen transport mechanism. Now, that really doesn't mean much of anything to me, but I know that none of my doctors in town have that piece of information, and it sure sounds important to me. I am hoping that it might be the missing link to solving this crazy mystery!
While we are there in Cleveland, we will be meeting up with our friends and small group leaders, Troy and Alicia. For those who are newer to this blog, Troy (27 years) is battling stage III colorectal cancer and he is having major surgery this Friday at the Cleveland Clinic. Surgeons will be removing all of his colon, several lymph nodes and possibly part of his liver (looked suspicious on the PET scan so they will examine it). Please join us in lifting this family up in prayer this week; pray for peace as they prepare, safe travels, a successful surgery, a smooth recovery, and that Alicia does not go into labor while they are there (8 months pregnant with their second son). If you are interested in sending them a card or a meal, let me know and I will get you their information.
As for the rest of our great family, Katie is back to school today and Ryan is already missing her. He, however, slept in until nearly 9AM, which was great! He will go back tomorrow, which can't come soon enough. His little body needs to run and play! Scott doesn't go back until next week, so we are still enjoying his time at home. He is taking 16 hours, all in his major, this semester in an attempt to get done as quickly as possible. I'm confident that he will do fine, but he is nervous about the heavy course load.